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Aleaxandrea....

2011-12-10T00:11:00.001+08:00

Introducing my beloved Alexandrea Raus bt Ari Raus...

that is my 4 months baby girl.... seating on daddy's lap.

born on : 9th August 2011

Paused

2011-08-05T13:02:00.002+08:00

Sigh Sigh Sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Yes, I have paused myself at home in mom's place in Seremban for 2 weeks!
God help me that I am anxious for my new born... However I am also not sure is it time yet or not... my doc seems to be convincing telling me to stay home till deliver... She was telling me its going to be today...
Looking for the sign... hmmmm I'd doubt it..
ITs ok.. I just wish everything turns out fine and I'm blessed. InsyaAllah.

So, I kindda excited but physically I'm out!
But so many things to do..
Glad that the renovation of our home has started.. thanks to my hubby especially despite all the obstacles, he manage it well.... ALL IS WELL.. ehehehe

My dearest Raquille,
Mommy understand that u are feeling the distance that could happen any moment now.
But, please be patience sayang, I'm trying my best to give my 200% attention to you dear.
Mommy bukannya can carry you lama2. Mommy tak larat sayang.
Your new sister is coming to love you too sayang. Don't worry Mommy and Daddy will still love you the same. Don't bother over all the nonsense talk that would make you feel jealousy sayang.
I know you will soon be fine right. Hey, at least you were the first to be loved rite? That nobody can beat, not even your dear sister.

My dearest ""..eheheheh secret la dulu..
Sorry sayang, Mommy had to carry your Abang Raquille many times, making your space very tight.
Mommy sometimes forgotten to recites you the surahs, or sometimes mommmy over slept during the recites, tired of the daily chores and hurdles.
Yet I still switch on the youtube for you to listen to Quran over and over again... I had tried my best dear.
Mommy is excited over you sayang.. Can't wait to see you to see the world! Come out dearest, come and see how mommy looks like, come see how daddy is, come and play with Raquille whom never missed to kissed you good nite since mommy's early pregnancy tau..

Checklist..checklisting...??

2011-05-16T21:35:00.004+08:00

Seating on my bed, thinking what to munch..
We've been thinking to much these days. Too many checklist been created, in creation and to be created more..
We are at the midst of marriage engagements.. no such word rite?? Well I shall put it my way!

Marriage engagements consist of below list:

Hospital options for delivery.

Maid's permit - kesian Rusyati rindu her anak.

New house defects report.

New house renovation quotation: kitchen, maid's toilet, grill..

New baby girl items needed.

Loans option? Not sure necessary or not..

The lightings allocation in new house (yeah.. bought the lights before got the keys.. ehehe)

Raquille's and baby's room deco.

Options to have supper later.. hmmm thinking hubby tapau me something later!

Which biscuits to munch while thinking of hubby tapauing for me.......

What other ways to low down Raquille fever ni... sian mummy's little boy!

What to do tommorrow on Wesak Day?

What else to checklist summore here?

See what I meant?

Preggy 19 Weeks!

2011-03-30T11:08:00.002+08:00

I wanted to put in some happy thoughts.. but its hard....

I am pregnant 19 weeks now! Yes! I am overwhelm all over again..
There's my announcement.
Hope I'll get this bitterness feeling inside of me out from my head..
The heart? Well it is good that it hurts sometimes; just to test its venerable.

Hmmm... its a small tiny winy test.. I shall think of it this way.. Hmmm thank you blog!
Facebook... you are starting to affect my life. So I shall fade myself away from you.
Let just one party enjoying it, at least there's some story input..
Only if its being shared.

God's willing...
Syukur Alhamdullillah...

FRUSTRATION

2011-03-30T10:55:00.002+08:00

Frustration is a common emotional response to opposition. Related to anger and disappointment, it arises from the perceived resistance to the fulfillment of individual will. The greater the obstruction, and the greater the will, the more the frustration is likely to be. Causes of frustration may be internal or external. In people, internal frustration may arise from challenges in fulfilling personal goals and desires, instinctual drives and needs, or dealing with perceived deficiencies, such as a lack of confidence or fear of social situations. Conflict can also be an internal source of frustration; when one has competing goals that interfere with one another, it can create cognitive dissonance. External causes of frustration involve conditions outside an individual, such as a blocked road or a difficult task. While coping with frustration, some individuals may engage in passive–aggressive behavior, making it difficult to identify the original cause(s) of their frustration, as the responses are indirect. A more direct, and common response, is a propensity towards aggression.^[1]

Source: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Frustration

My dearest sisterrrr

2010-11-21T23:36:00.003+08:00

Tonite my lil sister is going to fast, because of tommorrow she might be getting a c-section.. Today she told me on the phone while I was still in Seremban. Yes, it sobs me alot just now knowing that she is scared over the idea of being cut open..

Well, I told her that what has to be done its better be done soon. Plus she's in good hands, no worries. She is now still in Hospital Besar Seremban. Her baby wasn't growing possibly because of the placenta could be entangled or blocked.. Not sure. So, the they has been monitoring the baby's development almost 2 weeks now. Pity her, plus she is in a very small...

Mummy's Little Boy is 8 months old

2010-10-18T22:15:00.003+08:00

I love you Raquille...

Syukur Alhamdullillah

Woww...!

2010-09-28T11:09:00.002+08:00

Here goes..
I've already tendered my resignation of 2 months notice!
ahahha yes... I did it without even getting any offer elsewhere, just got a consent from my dear beloved hubby to do so..
Not worrying myself, I do know that rezeki can be gained if one look for it..

By the way, my dearest son is progressing well, syukur Alhamdullillahhh
Too much development to be mentioned that I feel my son has changed from baby to a boy..
Hopefully a smart healthy boy...

Development, development, development Raquille...

2010-08-15T14:51:00.005+08:00

Here goes...

He's now cheeky and loves to play peek-a-boo. Definitely laughing his throat out... Ohh comell!

Already taking the solid food.. Yes! Milk is still his main food.
Favorite Heinz : Fruity pear, apple juice, not pear juice.. (Ok, so far those are the list food try outs.)

Favorite cooked food by me : Plain porridge, Carrot Puree, Broccoli Puree. (This I thank the Avent Steamer n Blender, love it sooo much!)

He is apparently preferred standing up more than crawling.

Yes! Already in the walker; not advisable, I know, but do feel that he seems ready for it.

He can recognizing people.

Me definitely, Nona (MIL wanted to be called grandma following Spanish) of course la.. she's the one babysits him, Hubby, SisterInLaw, Hubby's Aunty : HotChick (Yes! another grandma; Nona sister's). Other than this ppl, he seems to be shy to get near to.

He's much playful than before.

He has the thing on his bed.. alaaa I've forgotten what is it called. The one goes round and round and round and round. Before this he'll just watch it and try to grab it. Now, since he knows how to grab things with his little fingers, he'd grab and shake the whole merry-go-round-tree as hard as he could till almost drop the whole thing! Ganas!

He is more vocal.

When it is time for his milk.. He'll scream and scream.... nasib masih comel!

When it is time for his morning and evening walk... Yes! He knows that every morning once he is awake and got my attention! Then, in the evening his Nona will bring him out.

He is demanding.

Once hubby let him try the watermelon. He scream out loud till his throat squeaking when hubby pull it away from him. OMG! I was furious!

He understands when I pointed out to he common little thing at home; air-con switch, an switches, lift button, fan, birds, car,...

He wanted the newspaper so much! This I will not letting him so. The dangerous of the carbon! However watching him grappling and shaking his legs so fast to get near any newspapers, I enjoyed! ahhahah

He's bald! ahahahah

Hubby and me the other day wanted to trim-cut his hair, out of sudden after realizing it he tried to snatch the cutter. The cutter was snoozing him to sleep at first. Funny la that day!

4 months Raquille

2010-07-13T13:46:00.004+08:00

Here's the update:

Raquille has been sick for almost 2 weeks now..

Getting the viral infectious he's still lively and active to play, Alhamdullillah..

His aunt bought him a walker, not advisable to ride yet due to his not able to sit yet! Haha..

He's more chicky than before, very curious of his surroundings, using his fingers grabbing, touching here and there.. whatever and whenever he could bring it straight to his mouth..

huhuhuhuh great development... loving it sooo much.

Nite time, hmmm more milk for my wakeup call... almost ready for solid food I presumes.

He's more affectionate then ever.. he'd laugh and giggles more than before.

Love that too! He'll cry when he sees me passing by wanting me to carry him.. haha

Raquille 2 - 3 months...

2010-06-30T12:11:00.000+08:00

My 3 months old Raquille

2010-05-21T15:32:00.002+08:00

God bless.. I am glad that today my hand feeling much much better..

What happen was that my wrist was injured. Doc said that I had the classic problem. I was carrying my baby wrongly..

hmm... tak sangka that my Raquille had made my wrist bengkokk!!!?

Yes! Drama huh? Well, at 3 months old.. my baby is 7 kg! Believe it..

He's been very spoiled..

Yes, he got a lot of babysitter whom been spoiling him... sikit2 jer nak dukung..

hmmm... nak buat mcmner, sume nak manjakan him...

Well, who suffers later? me lorr...

But, its ok if I'm suffering because of my baby.. I have no problem with it! And I'm loving it!

Sad that at one point, ppl tend to forget that this baby has mummy... At one time my mom inlaw cut his hair without even asking me first.. She cut the hair behind his right ear.. I was furious!

Ya, plus I was having my first day of period.. hangin lebey la jugak I..

I understand that my mom inlaw was excited.. till she forgot, that Raquille has his mommy and daddy .. so she simply cut the hair herself.. Not a good idea!

Later, tuhan nak duga lagi... my mom inlaw went for holiday 1 week to Mauritius, had to send Raquille to hubby's cousin place to babysit... guess what she did la.. she brought my Raquille to the salon and cut the whole hair.. I screammed! I told her that I was sad when she didnt even asked!

Ya la being the drama me... sedih la jugak tau!

uhuhuhuh well, at least I do know that my baby has alot of ppl cared over him..

but sometimes, I'm scared that he'd confuse of his own mother..

thankfully hubby always reminded me.. that this is the early phase, not to worry... the baby will always know which his real mom is.... just be patience.

I am blessed and thankful that I dont have to get a maid or send him elsewhere to whomever..

Gradually Adjusting Myself...

2010-05-07T10:15:00.005+08:00

Mummy's Little Boy! Mohamad Raquille Raus bin Ari Raus

Atok Abah during the Cukur Jambul

Me today!

Its been awhile... I know! Missing my blog too..

Adjusting myself on the early and inconsistence wakeup call from Raquille!

Missing my love from the office...

Paranoid in the baby's shop...

Syukur Alhamdullillahhhh

Never Been

2010-03-25T14:36:00.004+08:00

Its hard to take an advice if its not of your likings..
ITs harder when u giving advice and hoping they would follow.
Its difficult to get expectations when it differs you.

But yet you are trying hard to

Biaserla I try pujuk myself when I felt parents are always the same as I was growing up.
They always think of their ignorant over this new era!
Tapi nak buat mcmana, dah mmg in our culture, our rules and life regulations to always respects them.
I do. But not as they are still thinking inside of the box...

But in the end u always tot you always rite, but u were never rite kan..

So, I guess I'm too long staying home.. not use to it I guess.
ITs better off if all is left unsaid.
Sabar jer la.

My Experience... The Other Day

2010-02-25T21:24:00.002+08:00

Finally I'm up to reach my lappy....
Rinduuu all the cyberlogging thingy....
Its only been 3 days today.. I felt overwelm on the beauty of the nature... 'The Maximum Pain of the World' one nurse named Guna told me. - I did it!

Lets recap!
On the 17th February:
It was my checkup date.. ya its been awhile.. I kindda curious whats gonna happen today..
Since Adek's wedding been feeling pain at my VJJ.. ahahha singkatan vagina..
So, today tot of going to my last baby shop to get stuff summore..
Better go after checkup wid Dr. Kala at KPJ Seremban as fast as I can..
Then, when I was at the docs room she did the checking! Hell pain!
Ruponye dia dah check on my 'opening'... arrghh! dah 2cm !
So, she gave option.. to admitted now or go home (my parents place in Seremban) and wait till the pain felt then come back to hospital.
I asked.. can I jalan2 sekejap to the shop? She shouted "NO! Go home and rest! If still havent feel anything.. tommorow morning at 7am u must be admitted.. I'll arrange it for u"
ahahahah I sengihh! Suspen!
That nite I waited... remembering all the signs I should be getting..
Ayaakkk how long how longgg!!!

On the day-18th February:
So, there I was at the KPJ Sremban register for labor.... Suspen!
Then they straight put into the labor room.
Early morning... no one around but the nurses.
Then Hubby and I was observing the labor room... Cozy jugak!
Suddenly I heard " Lagi Lagi LAgi Lagi LAgi Lagi LAgi....." ppl cheering at the next room!
I ngn hubby tergelakk.. Huh???
Rupo2nye that is how the nurses here cheer their patient to teran-teran-teran...
Ahahahahahahhahaha
Somehow I feeel fun also..

So, waiting n waiting till around 10.30am... baby cries came out from the next room.
Waaaaaahhhh... sooo nice.......
Now its gonna be my turn! Adoi suspen!
Then Guna the nurse came to calm me down... she explained to me the 3 options of pain killer..the gas.. injections.. or final ..epidural..
So with such proud.. I said.. no epidural.. I'll go natural!
She agreed and said 'Yes! Not many ppl can get the opportunity to experience the Maximum Pain in the world kan!' ... and it kept stucked in my headddd....

The doc came straight to check on me later.... its around 10.45 kut...
Ya.... the clock on the wall in front of me was my only focus...
She came... and she poke....! OMGGGGGGGGG!!!! She broke my 'waterbeg' for me!
Aaarrghhh the pain...Again I asked Guna, 'Does it feel the same pain as in labor karang?' She said,'Sama.. but in different style'... Again it stuck into my head...

After that.. the contraction started to kicking.... it came at first every 20 minutes... then, every 15 minutes... they gave my the gas to calm me down... They said it would help to open up easily if i calm down.
Then came the contraction again at every 10 minutes...
Hubby? Oh ya.. I forgot.... He's holding the gas for me calming me down...
I meracau jer he sumbat gas on me.... sumbat and sumbat and sumbat.... still the pain getting strong...
Arrggghh... I wont forget! So, later I told them cannot tahan.. They jab me for the pain killer..
At the same time Hubby kept sumbat me the gas...
In between my contractions I actually could even gelak2 with hubby and the nurses..
Oh ya, by the way.. the room became crowded with nurses already... hmmm I know my pompom girls are ready to sorak me this time..

Around 12.45 pm I already decided that I couldnt take it...
OK.. I surrenderrr! I'll go for the epidural...
The doc and nurses straightaway preparing me for epidural..
Hubby said they all was just finished laying out all the devices and medicine.. Suddenly the doc checked on me and said... 'Oh no... its too late already.. you have to push dear'..
Oh gosh! This is it!
I ponnnnnn terannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn!
(For my surprise, apperantly... during the contraction tu... ya during the pain kicking tuh... that is the time we have to PUSHH....!?!?!?)
At back ground: 'LAgi Lagi Lagi Lagi LAgi LAgi Lagi LAgi Lagi LAgi Lagi......' kedengaran suara nurses dok sorakkan I....

The contraction came every 2 minutes now..
So, in between contractions tu... Hubby still doing his part sumbat me gas... ehehehhe
I even saw at one time he put on the gas on him.... ahahhaha he said he nak test...
ahahahah I guess he also need some! hahahahah

The room became so lively that I could event gave them the que to sorak me..
At one time I was like, 'Ok ready everybody...', then, 'Dahhhh datang dah datang...', then, 'Ready..ready ready...'....
Ya it sounds funny but helll knows how I was in there.. pushing my Raquille out!
Not forgetting my sorak girls and hubby, going 'LAgi Lagi Lagi Lagi LAgi LAgi Lagi LAgi Lagi LAgi Lagi.....!

It was such an exciting event but my strength to push has became down due to the pain killers... I was drowzy! I told them...
So, the doc suggest the vacum.. and in that condition how laaa I wanna think.. I dont even know how the vacum procedure be like..
There came the vacum... its like the breast pump thinggy in rubber... Doc put it into my VJJ.. OMG! Fucking pain!!!
And that is the time when she gave me the que to pushed.. I PUSHEDDD HARDDDD!

At 1.13pm.... Raquille kluar ke dunia akhirnyeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.. AMINNNNNN
and ADOIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII penatttttttt....

But the experience was great! Wonderful, astonishing, breathless.........
My new love... MOHAMAD RAQUILLE RAUS BIN ARI RAUS....

Dear friends.. thank you for all your prayers and wishes! I'm blessed with all your support and loves... I couldnt say more... but to feel blessed.. ALHAMDULLILLAHH...

Tick Tock Ticka Ticka Tock!!

2010-02-16T12:00:00.002+08:00

How longg how longgg...
I'm waiting for the next exhibition...
Yes! I am thankful that I am able to attend my dear sister's wedding..
Hmmm now I am skeptical over the list of all the signs to deliver..

Kaki bengkak... when its reducing, means almost time.
Period pain feeling at the tummy
Pressure at the ari-ari
Blood stain
Water break
Perut turun.. after all three fingers fit under the chest above the tummy
...
..

Well... all the best to me both! EeeeeEeyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhh!!

The Unforgotten 2nd Anniversary!

2009-12-23T00:26:00.004+08:00

I would start my blog today with one big laugh!
How can we both forgot our 2nd anniversary of life together.. how can?
Well.. subconciously we didnt at first k!

This was what happen....
At 22-12-2009 after work at around 7pm.. I was suddenly blurt out a question which I shouldn't have ask... I asked him 'When was our wedding date...!' Hubby wasn't pissed but kindda glared to me that I'm supposedly remembered..
I made my guess.. was it 24th or 22nd? He said.. 22nd!!!> OMG! Its today!!!
ahahahhahahahah

We made a dinner plan which was unplanned to meet up with Nigel (ya our bestman!) and my brother Tariq in Accapella, Shah Alam... Tapau some food from Kayu Manis... Our favourite Chinese-Muslim restaurant..

Later going back home around 11.30pm, I suddenly remembered of the event taken during our (me and hubby) journey going back home from office...
Our local radio Hot FM was on air with those typical topic of the evening... "Why men scared of commitment into marriage; due to one girl was upset that the boyfriend keep on giving excuses everytime the topic of marriage came up.. bla blabla blabla laa"
So, being me.. I brainstormed myself to get answers for my satisfaction..ahahah

I asked hubby: Baby, what make u think u are ready to marry me... Did I pastered u soo much? Did I threaten you by saying that I would go off to Sarawak to find job? How did you decided to ask your parents to come and see mine?
Hubby : Hmm.. oklaaa I'll put my ego aside for your answer. Well, it came to my sense that I think I have found the one for me.. I like the way how you take care of your family .. selalu tak berkira.
Me: So do I (Ronaldo slang).. I kindda feel that you are the one that I know I could go through hardship together..
Hubby: Waaaaa.. terharu me baby. Well, I also feel the same cos eventhough in a shorterm knowing you, plus we both gone through such difficulty on previous relationship.. I think we better not waste time while the opportunity is there, kan!
Me: I guess so.. I'm glad we both turn out well so far kan kan..

These great and very self-satisfaction Q&A session with hubby was really breathless and it made my anniversary this year unforgettable..

I love we both..

How Am I Doing...

2009-12-13T13:18:00.006+08:00

Today I am already 28th week and 5 days of my 3rd pregnancy...
How am I doing?... Lets recap my past, present, future..

Job as Project Management Officer.. (ya ppl me no more Business DEvelopment Exec.. ;P)
As usual I am making my adjustment AGAIN! but its huge FUN and tasking are GREAT adventure! ahahhahaha
Well, new scope of work.. same previous new ppl which I have been adapting to..
hmmm there's time where I felt or though I made the wrong move to succeed a mission..
Some ppl like it, some ppl even praised it, some ppl just being ignorant and hate me more...
I wasn't even aware of it...
When this had happen I felt into doing my work more to the team I am in.. not to the COMPANY anymore! Screw you all! I wouldnt mind.
WEll to those ppl whom bother much of the birocracy in the company.. go a head..
Go on and annoyed me... I am enjoying it with a lot of laugh.
Don't like me aite?.. its kindda ridicolous.. I havent even shown you me trucolors..
AHAHAHAHAHAHa funny laa company ni... tot that we, the employee was supposed to be shield and tendered by Homosapien Resources.. , here the culture are much differ!
Instead, we only were to be blamed and to be blamed without even any consultation!
Whatever! I am still surviving as always...

As Sister to the family
My dear little sister is getting married.. woww!
Engagement taken on the 27th Nov previously..
Its was beautiful with the impact of some un'planned' deco orthodox.. (ahahha u wont understand on my family thingy!)
They (the authority of the family) decided to have the wedding on 14th FEb 2010..auuwwww.. Valentine's..
Anyways, that date has given an affect towards me ..
Unsupprisingly, which I had already consulted the 'Authority' that my due to delivery is between 26th Feb to 3rd March... hmmmmmmmmmmmmm!
Go figure how I am feeling these days..

As Wife
Lovely! Blessed..
Missing alot of physical! Ya! I'm telling ya!
Affectionous are marvelous.. giving and in given!
Doing a lot of stuff together.. choas.. choas.. eventss..brainstorming over opinions!
Been cooking for hubby alot.. I'm enjoying every bit of it..
The best of all was being together staring at my tummy all nite long.
Appreciating it all with moderate expectations.. GREAT!

As expecting mommy
I am glad that I am able to be here again!
Its most special moments... because of 'him' I became special each of everyday..
I felt much motivates every single day of my working hectic and sometimes streesing task..
I felt much lively over the surroundings...
During this 7 month period, 'he' definitely gave out all his strength poking, punching n kicking the wall covering 'him'... yup! my tummy..
Every movement of mine I felt that I am being followed, escorted, attacched with affectious of 'him'.. I love 'him'..
Enjoying ourselves preparing stuff for 'him' and 'me'..

As just being me..
I could be paranoid for not knowing yet where to deliver my precious 'him'..
I should be bazzare for thinking what will happen during my delivery with the wedding going on..
I could have been craze over my confirmation employment.. which I felt its better off if I'd just renew my probation period.. Nuts!
I could be out of my mind for taking a lot of things for granted!

EMO EMO EMO EMO EMOTIONAL MEEEEEEEEEE...!

My 20th Finalle~~

2009-11-18T09:20:00.004+08:00

Woke up today with a headache...
Raquille (our future baby, InsyaAllah) has been alarming me from inside of my tummy since this morning.. I'm guessing he is also excited to early wish me.
Hubby as usual was with his own way of wishes..

Ya, I'm not into birthday present so much.. receiving is a bonus... giving out; will be considered. Bad huh? Well, not intentionally.. but I am a giver.. whenever I felt which unconditionally .. Well, its best if myself put it as though everyday is a birthday.. Means I appreciate everyday of my life living.. Waaahhh tooo much of deep feeling huh!
Well this year hubby gave out gave me his wishes on my laptop wall.. I love it so much!

I love u both!

This would be my 29th birthday! Wowww! Time really passed! And wowww! I managed to live a life of such a great deal of adventure... Yup my journey was adventurous! And I loving it!

now then and forever?

2009-10-15T16:53:00.003+08:00

Been busy,... will still be busyyy!
OMG!!! All those workload are scaring me or excites me NOt!!!

Congratulation to Papa!

2009-10-14T23:21:00.002+08:00

Today was my first time attending the Angkat Sumpah of Papa (my dad inlaw) new post as the Federal Court Judge. Congratulation!
It was a very memorable event where I got to meet all our most honorable judge of Malaysia.. It was also my first visit to the Palace of Justice in Putrajaya.... CAntekkk nye his office!
I was excited, as always... but Papa was calm.. He was first to angkat sumpah.
It was in such a different ambiance and environment, I felt comparing to the military;s.. how la can I put the justice and military side by side rite...
Judges these days are really funky! I saw one judge with blue grey hair.. one with the silverish green hair... the one with the red color spectacle; that's papa! Then, the red hair lady judge!
Wallauwey! I was impressed!
Ya yaa.. I was more interested of luring my eyes on all these judges, not forgeting their families whose also sitting behind us..

Today in the morning, I was organizing the signing ceremony of my company with BGSP, JUPEM.. It was really hectic these days.. I dunno where to begin.. But, attending Papa's Angkat Sumpah had made me forgoten my real world! Darm!

So, yeah.. I am really tired now... Goodbye today!

being inconvinient in this world today (yesterday actually)

2009-09-30T21:54:00.000+08:00

why do ppl being inconvinient in this such convinient world?
I was wondering as i was driving home after dropping a fellow mate home from work
she leaves near my home.. good to have a companion driving home to talk to, u know.
NWay, today was such a hard time for me.
Its been a while
but usually i would have a huge supportor behind me..
ya... i kindda ponder myself of the past again.
its another challenge of my life in my new universe.
It seems farmiliar, but its even tougher.

Having my bump on my tummy enhance it even more,
till i feel its like another excuse to cover up my fear.
Well, i kindda had such a breakdown..
Almost, which by just a momment of silence today,
it kindda gave some wrong expression to these very very concern ppl.
Its ok that i'm busy.
Its ok that i'm being judged over such small matter.
Its ok that i'm being sarcasm.
I'm ok, and will be ok after i had my time to express it here..

However, its a different story when i got home..
My jjourney will never end..
its hurt.. but it will never end...
will never end.. or will start yet another journey of mylife..
I'm apreciating every moment eventhough its just me facing it.
Its ok, i'll be fine..

Like my Aunty Ti always remind me...
Dont look at urself alone over the problem you are encounter..
Look around.. other ppl having much much trouble of their life.
Yet, they are strong, yet they are living, yet they are happy.
Take a day by day.
Take an hour by hour..
Take a minute by minute..
Appreciate it and thanked over it..
Or you'll end up regreting each of it!

But today is really one of those days which i always had my cramps
on my 1st day of PMS.
But, this time it could also been my pregnancy..
Bare with it.

3 Months 1 day...

2009-08-20T16:15:00.003+08:00

Ohh my god! Its was such a journey which I couldn't imagine how mothers does it!!?!

I am grateful that I am still hangin here. Though I kindda pissed when I was informed my MC is over my limit...but being me now, I wouldnt mind, even that they would fire me.. I wwouldnt mind at all (Yayaya.. Aqma would say... whats new la babe!? ahahahha miss that too..)

Anyway, this discomfort and unpredicting sickness is really got me this time.. I was even admitted into the UMRA ward due to dehydration. One day I was in the ward watching 2 bottles of water streaming through my vein. Monday 17th August that day.

Shishhh! I had lot of work that I couldnt concentrate on.

I really hope my baby will be fine. Insyaallahh I am trying my best here. Amin.

Mean Monday..!

2009-07-27T15:49:00.005+08:00

Ya.. what a day to start of on this bluddy Monday..

Or was it just me being hormonized to even upload here my feelings...

I started early today, where I felt the cramp, gastric, pocking... all over my tummy...

Yes! Excitedly I am 8 weeks and 3 days preggy today...

I came to office late.. luckily having a very understanding boss... and I know I will not take any advantage over this... will not due to my respect to the team!

Yet! Some ppl had to give a remark stating that whateve I am feeling today, in these few weeks of preggy; I shouldn't be getting this type of sick YE^T... not suppose to happen at me..being curious..?

WTF? Do I fake this? Do I want this? I do want it... I do want to be preggy.. I'm even blessed to have this sickness because I know its for a good cause...

But wonder why this ppl make such accusation: (Now rationally)

Concern over my frequent sickness.

Didn't figure out that this is my 1st preggy from after my second attempt. ( Tot everyone here knew already?)

Misses me when I'm not around in the office?

Scared I didn't finished any of my task, probably I am not up to some ppl expectations.

Hate to rerectified my wonder of works which FYI, its my first experince.

Feeling curious whether I am sick or fake.

So, I guess its just me being hormonized over..

Sorry that I didn't mean to hurt anyone... but I kindda pissed off today... But, at least I didn't show it through my dull face here, aite.

Probabbly its just this mean mean Monday!

Hello ASUS again..

2009-07-24T21:46:00.004+08:00

Hello ASUS again, not any ASUS my 'homey lappy' ASUS..
Its been awhile, I won't compare with my '8 hrs lapp'; HP in the office which sometimes I do had to bring it home. Not to show off or being a traitor to my dear dear ASUS..
Please ASUS forgive me, I do miss you much.

Well today I'll massage u more then u can imagine.. I'll touch every keys u offers me..
I'll tender u to my sleeps.. No worries, though my homework in HP are really bugging me. I will be with you toonite.. So, tonite is the nite when two become onee... (Spice Girls)

Eventually I had a cravings today. Craved for fruits. After work today, knowing hubby won't be home tonite. I stopped at our favorite grocery mart.. Village Grocery in Bangsar Village... I bought all the fruits on sale which exclusively on strawberries, blueberries, red kiwi and pears.. Ohhh, its wierd that I didn't pick up the banana just now. I was thinking of it before arrived.. But, its my ego saying that "Darm, if the mat salleh (which probably some supermodel) duk beli banyak2, I also nak beli la" Chewah.. blagak! Melayu Blagak this time I was.. Ahahahah

Doing fine, doing ok ok

2009-07-21T16:38:00.004+08:00

Today will be my 1 month and 21 days I'm adapting in my new workplace.

Its exciting when I was starting here, still exciting due to my involvement into new genre of workscope... However, due to my preggy condition I kindda suddenly solemn myself to mute.

Nothing was affecting me... a frined of mine was concern and taught that I was having problem with work or something else.. But, I was so scared to be excite over my preggy condition.

So, as far as I can say.. I am ok... the preggy is ok, Insyaallahh... I wish myself and hubby the best.. We both wanted the best but only Allah knows what's the best of us..

I'll be fine.. no worries....

Calsuim

2009-07-17T10:52:00.004+08:00

Yesterday I was on MC, today too I'm on MC....
After meeting wid our Dr. Zainuriah (Klinik Keluarga) she reminded me on the requirements of Milk.. for Calsium...
I refused, but in the sameway I feel then needs too.. Due to the fact that I could hear the rusty sound on my knees, my connector of elbow and arm... arrghh what the heck!?
So, today this morning.. I woke up... teared out some cheese slice and tried to nibble......
I vomit like mad! All the cereal I ate gone into the sink and toilet bowl... yucks!
So..... calsium??? i tot my other doc (Dr. Ummul) said it shouldnt be a problem.... she gonna subcribe me some calsium supliments after my trimesters fiinished....
But, I know for real that the milk are the most efective calsium provider... Just that I couldnt take any milk...
My Hubby kept telling its a psycology that I made mind to hate the milk's smell..
Please la... I haven't took any milk since I was form 3, ok! Its a fact!
I cant even smell any milky product... I'll vomit... so, imagine taking the milk by itself... YUCKS!
Help! help! I dunno what to do.... I scared that it will effect my infant.. my dear dear infant...
I hope it will be fine.. yet I am worried that I do need CALSIUM!!!

My Lovely 1st Trimester: 6 weeks 5 days

2009-07-15T13:38:00.006+08:00

I am in a discomfort condition...

Near my desk(temporary workstation), I could smell something annoying... Could it be my fried rice that I just finished the other quarter.. Ya, now days I tend to eat breakfast halfway.. then, I'll continued it during lunch time... If I feel like it... If not, I would just tapau or follow anybody downstairs.. depending on my mood...sigh.. ya ya mood swing ppl!

Then, hows work affecting me? Or hows me affecting the work? heheh so far ok la... I kindda blurr more, which made me follow all instructions given. Yes, usually I'll would questions or redirect my task to others.. now, I dont.. With much effect, I will do my best,,.. but later when I make a comparison with my team, I am by far to catch up.. God knows!

However, I am very to myself. I pushed myself aside.. I am very2 hushed away.. I hushed myself away.. I dont feel like talking to anyone. But, when I did, I'll go bazzar, depending on my mood.

Oh ya! Not forgeting that on Monday 13th July (My weekly appointment with Gynea started already, yey!) Hubby and I saw our fetus heartbeat! Hubby can't stop smilling till today. Alhamdullillah. We both disbelieving what again we had accomplished in our life. But, don't excite to much, we keep reminding ourselves.

However, I am handling my heartburn, gastric, blooting tummy with alot of smile.. hhehehh I remembered that I used to tell hubby how I missed this feeling before... Ya Allah, hanya kau yg ketahui betapa syukur kami menerima pujian mu ini...

Anyway, I will continue enjoying my heartburn, gastric, blooting tummy. I wiill not necglated this feeling and will adore it more. Yes being hypothetically, but worth it!

There goes my lunch break. Ciao

Anxiety filled with thrill, overwelmed by Joyy..

2009-07-07T11:50:00.006+08:00

AMin..Alhamdulliahhh... Allah giving us both his bless again, don't take it wrongly cause I know that I'm blessed unconditionally without any doubt. But these days was another greatest day which I feel I'm specially choosen...

Again without no hesitations I feel in this world, life has been blessed for all the gracious given.

[Yes, repeatation of statement are annoying but, I can't help it]

Yesterday, was such a shocked for me that I found myself positive again! Yey! 6 months has passed given me such a wonderful experience in my life, work wise especially. I was adjusting myself, yes! Well I wouldn't expect much, but I feel that the new friend are nice, they get my tunes so far. I am doing fine and great! Alhamdulliallhh.

Back to yesterday, I went through such a tough time.. which I suddenly drop into such a blow of emotions... ya ya.. me with my cries... I kan chengeng! My new friend had to hear it due to my hubby as usual forgot to switched on his hp... and was in a meeting.. I couldn't get him, to express my happiness and nervourness. I cried unhelplessly at a carpark to my new friend Ila... I thanked her for the lending ears..huhuhuh malu pon ada gak... Coincident I kindda heading to office but decide to go meet my gynea instead.. [My point is that I kindda want my team to know whre my wherebouts are, she's like Aqma in NMSB laa] Now its more of obvious how 'chengngeng' I am, rite... But, I do thank to her and my boss for always prey and encouragements.. Well, they've been motivates me (who's always in blurr to their mocks..ahhaha, takpe tunggu nanti my trucolors dah kuar... takpe,takpe..), not forgeting my goodfriends all... a long list of fiens..

Yesterday, hubby got the news while he was in the office... he said, he was in a meeting and as soon he (finally!) switched on his phone, he almost felt from his chair... ahhahahha shocked!

We wanted this to be private.. So, I will try my best to keep it down for awhile...

I hope, this time I'll do my best again... I redha dengan apa ketentuan tuhan.. InsyaAllah..

[I know that I shouldn't publish this yet, but I kindda figure when?.. We'll see ok my dear Me!]

With or without title post

2009-06-25T22:13:00.006+08:00

Its been awhile that I almost withdrew the blog purposes in my life. It was not just a matter of time allocated between chaos, games, networks, respects, ego, and emotions.

Sometimes it was not the notes, snooze of reminder on the planner sets for us to not forgotten, but it was just the circulations of oxygen had reached and been to serebrum through medulla oblongata and not approaching my nerves to tasks myself.

Reasons are easily created, giving the effect to all the RMK-9... Since we know there's always RMK-10, 11,12,13..78,79,80...1110,1111,1112.. infinity. Hidup Malaysia!

Reasons are easily forgotten, by punishing, by acknowledging, and by just saying sorry! Sorry became anonymous to whom should we care!

Reasons are cheap! Cheap that we can buy it through our powerless of faith, having our payable representative bugging the bench; time is being bought over without any shame! Shame, shame, tak malu! Let them rest on the bench rest for a sec.

Get your own reasons! Get them from your pocket, your own. Buy them your own if that will win your way of winning the gold trophy. Not silver, bronze even any consolation prizes. Don't.

Being in a network doesn't gives you a waive for any reasons. But its your shield to break even, isn't it? Great! Enjoy it! Gain it! Be it! You'll be fine, but not her, him or others! Believe it or not, you decide.

THE REDEMPTION SONG.. ahahahahhahahahahhaha

Adjustment and Fine Tune

2009-06-25T10:03:00.006+08:00

I'm not sure where to begin..
I have penerate myself from Scrumpy to Scroochie..
Scrumpy and scroochie shared the same medium..
But Scrumpy has delayed... Scroochie has been forward so far so good.
Does Scrumpy doing fine with Scroochie, supposedly YES!
If Scrumpy is not doing fine, Scroochie will come into purposes.
On the nadir ground.. Scrumpy cycled nearing zenith, which Scroochiee has scalated away .
Everything Scrumpy needed most has been already ScroochieD.. do you halo.. do you halo.. halo...halo..

Giler bengek! I dunno, I'm being JUST.. bengek lagi.. craze allert!

1st June 2009

2009-06-04T21:39:00.004+08:00

Hello blog..

Yes, my journey is still at the start line but its a new hope of assuring.
I am taking this opportunity with a strength to adjourn my despair.

But I feel weak among the strongest, exciting, enthuse and inspiring aura.. whew!

I craze on my nervousness unspoken, I sealed myself to the ground.

Here I am stumbled not yet down, not yet there.

Navien and Mapian

2009-05-16T20:20:00.009+08:00

Its Saturday... watching and booing MANU tonite... ehehehhe... (MANU won though!)
I kindda enjoying my 1 week notice till this 20th, Wednesday in Navi and Map..

I have to ponder back what I've been going thru there. I had grew along with them. I will never forget the moments and the experience there. I will not forget the friendships and the family I had earn there. I've learnt a lot then I expected there. I will not be more emotion now. heheheheh WHATEVA!

GOnna missed NAvian's.

GOnna miss me, popping my head left and rite, up and down scouting on the PSYCHO, while sneaking on the net.
Gonna miss pissing AQMA in the meeting room, at her table or on MSN.
Gonna miss shitting on the net wid AQMA on matters that bugging us alot...!?
Gonna miss the missions against others in the meeting room widd all the PICs..ahhah i did best there! I buat bodo jer... then provoke! Provoke! Provoke!
Gonna miss provoking ROSHAYU even though she'd mute herself.
Gonna miss the noise from FA; pot pet pot pet... dak duk..ching ching.. kaboom!
Gonna miss the barking of P4.. the havoc of ROZIMY, to backup FIQA from PSYCHO, farming n gossiping wid SYAM, OH BULAN, KOSMO, mcm2 ada...
Gonna miss teasing P5 until the valcano burst out.
Gonna miss mocking P2 testing their patience and mine aswell.
Gonna miss the troubleshooting wid IT team while asking for favors...*wink *wink
Gonna miss the chicky looks of CHEONG trying her best in bahasa.
Gonna miss the sneaky wicky of SOUNDLEY.
Gonna miss the squeaking from YUSALINA in surau fighting herself to her world..
Gonna miss walk to the mineral water in pantry and toilet...
Gonna miss the pretending moment going to the Collection Team.
Gonna miss knowing my new table neighbour ALLY, she's nice!!
Gonna miss checking up on FAZIEDAYU behind me.
Gonna miss the delicious ikin bilis of DD....huh!
Gonna miss the potluck! Plus the idea of having ikan talapia... SYAM, sluurrpppp!
Gonna miss the chocolate cake of YANA's mom! *wink* wink*.
Gonna miss wathcing P1 making themself handy together wid their PIC!
Gonna miss matching AZZUDIN wid ROSHAYU.
Gonna miss SALIHIN's action of attention, which include AKKIL tu haa.
..... Missing all already!
Yes! Some of it was during my momments wid our previous COO, Owatari San and others members who had left before me..
Ya... I admit it today that I was kindda competing for attentions from Owatari San... ya... we compete among us.. AQMA, ZULINA, SOUNDLEY as well.. ya ya.. in the end.. AQMA won.... WHATEVA! But Owatari-San has his own way of spreading his love to us! Muacks boss!
The happy times wid chatters.. ZULINA, ROZIMY and ME... poking2 ROSHAYU... made our own circle.. without anything to pass around.. but to share our stories n experience..
Then the time of controversional issues... again its between ROSHAYU, ROZIMY, ZULINA and ME!
hmmm.. the LUNCH-WHO EVER CAN COME AND JOIN-GANG.. we hates ppl ordering... WE order takpe! ahahhaha
Watching the surveyors walked passing us, with all the gears in hand to make new coverage.. coverage..coverage...
Oh ya.. not forgeting IT team, who unconditionally helping us out into the technology...

Being Navian, all the above u should do to survive and sustain there, ok!

My Sweet Sweet Basil

2009-04-17T15:32:00.006+08:00

I was introduced to Sweet Basil by hubby.
Since then, my wild admiration towards it is spectacular.
Its overwelm me.

Its has unusual, acoustic, husky, mildly flaming, pepperish of fragrance, oh my god its soo nice!
Describing it giving me the chill..

I grew them. I grew them alot.

In my own 'sactuary', even in my father's little green...muahaha!

I am crazy over it, crazy to comprise it into all dishes.. I mean all dishes.. spaghetti (the usual), lasagna, shepard's pie, black pepper sauce, my 'famous' stew, masak kicap, daging masak merah, chicken soup, fish soup, beef soup, mushroom soup, porridge, etc etc etc.

Article: No Man Is Perfect

2009-04-10T00:03:00.002+08:00

The below article was send to me the other day.. interesting! Then, I fwd them to hubby, and a friend. The funny thing was that the revert from my hubby.. read la!
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NO MAN IS PERFECT~!

Seorang isteri mengadu begini kepada saya,
"Suami saya bukanlah seperti yg saya gambarkan sewaktu belum berkahwin. Dia amat berbeza daripada penampilannya dahulu. Sekarang dia bukan sahaja gagal membahagiakan saya malah sering menjadikan saya kesal mempersuamikannya. Ingin sekali saya meninggalkannya, tapi tak berupaya kerana memikirkan anak² dan masa depan saya sendiri, walaupun ada lelaki yang sedia mengambil saya di luar sana. Saya seperti terperangkap oleh kedunguan masa lalu. Kekal bersamanya bererti saya selamanyalah tidak akan berasa bahagia. Apa yang boleh saya lakukan sekarang?

Lalu saya bertanya,
skrg puan nak yang mana? Kekal bersamanya atau mengikut lelaki lain? Maksud saya mana yang lebih berat?
Kalau Dr. tanyakan yang mana lebih berat, tentulah bersamanya lebih berat. Kalau begitu, mengapa tidak pejamkan mata, bayangkan yang indah², anggaplah dia satu²nya lelaki yang ada di dunia ini dan binalah kebahgiaan bersama.

Isteri itu seperti terkejut dgn saranan saya. Barangkali dia mengharapkan satu cadangan yang lebih memihak kepada gelojak hatinya untuk memilih lelaki lain, berdasarkan kebahagiaan yang sudah gagal di kecapinya skrg.

Lalu saya perjelaskan,
kalaulah kebahagiaan yang menjadi persoalan, belum tentu pilihan seterusnya akan menjaminkan kebahagiaan. Barangkali bersama lelaki kedua masalah lebih menimpa. Kalau nanti perkahwinan kedua itu juga gagal memberikan kebahagiaan, apakah anda akan berkahwin buat kali ketiga? Jika tak bahagia juga, anda akan berkahwin pula buat kali keempat? Kemudian kelima, keenam? Sampai bila?

Hidup bukankah untuk dinikmati? Usia bukanlah lama untuk dipersiakan dengan hal-hal yang tidak sepatutnya. Siapapun dia, dia adalah lelaki yang bergelar `SUAMI'. Kebahagiaan adalah satu istilah yang telah terbentuk. Tinggal bagaimana kita mendefinasikan kebahagiaan itu sahaja yang menyebabkan sesetengah drpd kita gagal berasa bahagia.

Alangkah ruginya kalau hidup yang singkat ini kita gagal mendapat bahagia. Semata² kerana menyangka kebahagiaan itu akan dinikmati jika bersama orang sekian-sekian. Semata-mata kerana menyangka Si Dia boleh memberi bahagia yang diimpi-impikan. Kalau MELESET bagaimana? Kalau kebahagiaan yang iidam-idamkan itu tidak diperoleh sdgkan kebahagiaan yang sedia ada ini telah ditinggalkan, bagaimana?

Setelah anda Diijab-kabul, satu perjanjian telah dibentuk. Anda telah merelakan diri anda bergelar ISTERI dan rela memanggil org berkenaan yang tiada langsung pertalian dengan anda sebelumnya sebagai SUAMI. Anda merelakan segalanya kepada dia dan demikian dia terhadap anda. Setelah diikat dengan tali perkahwinan, mengapa tidak pejamkan mata dan anggaplah dia pasangan yang terbaik. Dia mmg dijadikan buat anda. Dia adalah segala-galanya. Bentuklah kebahagiaan bersamanya.

JANGAN mimpi-mimpikan lagi org lain selain dia.
JANGAN angan-angankan perkara yang bukan-bukan.
INGAT!!!!.. Anda dijadikan dari tulang rusuk dia. Relakan diri anda untuk bertolak ansur dlm beberapa hal untuk mencari kesukaan dan kebencian bersama. Relakan membina bahagia dan dialah alatnya.

Masalah yang sering menimpa pasangan muda ialah masing² gagal memantau imaginasi untuk membentuk bahagia pada awal perkahwinan. Setelah segalanya dilalui dan masalah menapak di sana sini, barulah sedar sesuatu sepatutnya dilakukan lebih awal dahulu. Tetapi nyata sudah terlambat, imaginasi bersama mek anis me-mek anis me nya telah dipersia-siakan. Bahagia kelihatan tetapi sudah tidak terjangkau dek tangan. Kesudahannya, bahagia disangka berada di luar dan mahu di buru walhal sebenarnya bahagia sudah berada di tangan, hanya gagal mengenal dan menikmatinya sahaja.

Selagi mana SUAMI anda itu masih menjalankan tanggungjawabnya, maksud saya dia masih ingat rumah, ingat anak-anak dan ingat untuk mencari rezeki, dia masih seorang lelaki yang boleh diharapkan. Apalagi jika dia seorang yang tidak meninggalkan ibadah-ibadah fardu, kekurangan-kekurang an yang ada pada dirinya hanyalah sekadar kekurangan untuk membenarkan kata-kata "NO MAN IS PERFECT".

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Hubby's comment:

LoL… I hope u are not suggesting anyting to me hahaha…

What do you understand by the phrase “NO MAN IS PERFECT.” The word “man” is not just for the male gender but also implies to the female gender as the word “man” should be interpreted as its plural definition. As such it is acknowledge that every “man” has its “needs” and “wants”.

A person may need to be financially secured but wants to be rich,

A person may need to be Husband but wants to be a Man,

A person may need to be a Wife but wants to be a woman,

I need a wife but I want a girlfren (sometimes not just 1 girlfren hehehe)

I need a husband but I want a boyfren (ya you girls are just the same too..sometimes not just 1 boyfren)

Sometimes we confuse ourselves with what we “need” and what we “want”… can we blame ourselves because we are all born with desire and curiosity? But to distinguish and ensure our “needs” are fulfilled before pursuing our “wants”… is what differentiate a person who is content and a person who is disgruntled in life.

A “want” may be a dream but your “needs” are your steps to reality.

Appreciate what you have and do not quell on things you don’t have…

Thank you,
Regards

Ari Raus Md Raus

My simple comment:

Of course I am not suggesting u to do anything… but just some lesson need all of us to be reminded.. or to be review for future reference…

The best is to appreciate what you have needed to be had!

Transformations

2009-04-09T23:15:00.004+08:00

His

Mine

Interest changes with time running out... hmmm I'm still wondering why..
But if its a positive change, it is highly encouraging.. if its not, why should it be change after all.
The negativity of change occur when one feels it is a need or not.
Does the positive change consists of the after feeling of such negativity?
Go figure.. but not too long because time is running out.

Run!
Save yourself!
Pack your bag!
Get out of town!
Find out!
Now!
I mean now!

I'm transforming my interest into something I would always thought was such a lame game..
GOLF !?!?!?!? Seriousssss? serioussssssssss...

Good luck to both of us this weekend! I was a hockey player, so it should not be any problem.. Or will it be? Darm! I dunno!

Peace to my love of Herbs and Knits.. still loving you no. 1 and no. 2!

Psychopathic....!

2009-03-17T10:39:00.010+08:00

Psycho is slang for a person who is either psychopathic or psychotic. The term is often considered mildly offensive or derogatory. (From WIKIPEDIA)

I would like to share some of my experience, I encountered these days...

My daily task are as per the below reports, compiled into my excellsheet, check this out:

Progress - daily record on all inputs and outputs of maps.
Bounce Record - daily error founds.
Schedule - our target of completions, to estimate whether we all meet our schedule requirements or not, basiclly for our own planning based on resources availability
Coverage - area planned from each productions
Achievement - Our team achievements on each coverage completions.
Query - As u can see, is the records of my own or any enquiry raised by my team members including myself towards our productions technicality of any event. Somehow, one latest query that I am still flabbergast to whom should this be issued.....

Let me enlarged the questions I had just add today, besides of other technical query:

Q: Why do we hate so much
-A stalker
-peep into ppl monitor
-creating a very unhealthy environment
-feeling unplesent and unsecured, when somebody saw him peeping wid his ears to listen from the board partition.
-feeling unsecured, no privacy at our own workstation when he came and perform checking witout permission nor acknowledgement
-don’t have confident of our own performance and integrity towards the team

-didn’t interigate properly on any problem encounter, instead divert it other matters and create other issues

I am doing fine, and I don't think I'm getting there... InsyaAllahh..

(sometimes I do need to express myself, but YES! entirely not at the right place)

8 hours of solemn

2009-03-13T12:16:00.004+08:00

I feel that being here is a burden to my precious time also to the coperation itself.

I always ensure my task will be completed before its suppose to. Not to be snorb or anything.. just that not being boss... your loads become much lighter. Which I happen to notice that the superior I had, will ensure that I have sufficient task kut... WHATEVA.

In this hours.. I can make use of all my stamina on loads of work I wish to do, but here I am heating my butt till it expend into XXL.

I wish to help in figuring out whats the best, most efficient method in terms of technicality, or productivity, or quality but any sugggestions will either be spoken by others and claiming it is theirs or it will just be recorded and KIV... forever and ever...

[OMG! I kindda saw this im my DRAFT today, 17th May 09.. wondering what had I been through on that day, I pity me..]

2009-03-05T10:07:00.004+08:00

Posto posto... My deliverry is here!

Yeyyyyyy... alll arrived safelyy.......

...Mustt finishh thisss quicklyy......! I must!!!!

My late Valentine's present is here.. thanks hubby!

Adios Februaryy 2009!

2009-02-28T19:00:00.005+08:00

I was puzzled to find out today is already end of February 2009...

Nothing much happen.. Here are some recaps:

Knitting - a lot of improvement here! Now I know how to knit in a loop. Yey!

Health - I had gone for a jog.. ONLY ONCE for this month! Yucks!

Activities -

hmmmm I just say that the worst was to have a marathon of knitting in 24 hours while hubby playing his PS3... we have made a record there!

Cooking? Since mom had been cooking on the alternate days.. in between, its either I recycle any leftovers if any, or.. I modified them to some exquisite cuisine such as below.. or cook new dish!?

Spaghetti Lamb Shank

Hydroponicking!!!

2009-02-15T19:02:00.007+08:00

We went Hydroponicking.....

Hubby found new project for himself which also complement my garden galore! At first, he wanted to build an aerophonic.. It's fucntions as hydroponic, but it uses water sray to shoot the roots from underneath, instead of flowing the water trough the roots (This is the normal type of hydroponic). Hmmm.. interesting, huh! Well, I'm excited! Apparently. the instument for the aerophonic is way too expensive.. Hubby was telling me obviously.. Do u think I would know any of this? No way!

I didn't do much though... but our hunting was from OU, to The Curve, to Shah Alam hardware, and at last, to Jalan Pasar. Hmmmm... Hubby happy that he finally found his pump at Jalan Pasar! I was the one suggested it, good thing I had a n engineering boyfien lastime. He was the one who showed me this place loong time ago. Since its been too long, hubby and I still need the Street Directory to guide us there [Chewah! Free promotions for Navi and Map!!!] I feel much better that now hubby is with full spirit again! Eventually, at home now the normal simple hydroponic has been built by hubby!

Any way, while hunting for all his instruments, I manage to steal some time to study my knitting tutorial. Yup! Now I've already know how to Increase and Decrease my knit! This will help me alot in creating shapes of each knit! Yippie! I did it again.. but, still not much time for myself lately! Hmmmm, can't imagine how being a mom would be... takpe, since I am still considered free... I will keep myself occupied, and make something BIG!... [One of my new year resolution!]

In between all of this... we still manage to make Apple Pie!!!! And it is darm f**king good!

Vegetation: In progress!!!!?

2009-02-13T22:02:00.006+08:00

Ohh dearr Basilssss!!

Mint coming sooon!

Mushroomssssssss! Wwooww!!?

I was chilling with hubby in our balcony, saw some improvement. Now I knew that it wasn't a waste buying extra worms for fishing! We tend to let it stay in every soil we had. It fertilized the soil incredibly...!

Thank God its Friday!
Plans for our weekends...... a lot!!

Going back to Seremban plus Rembau... it's been awhile, we both haven't visit hubby's Kampung Astana Raja.
Aerophonic / Hydrophonic VS knitting / garden galore.
Gunung Nuang?? - was actually planned last week but hubby got sakit lutut..ahahaha kesian!
Fishing? - lastweek already did, but being Mr and Mr. Raus.. we never know.
Cooking.. of course! Good darm every single time we got hungry... munchies!
Cleaning.. EVERYdarm day! (which also include hubby messing mom's kitchen, and I will be on standby on this, ADHOC)
Laze around in bed whole weekends, lost in all the movies downloaded by hubby - don't think so.. its been awhile.

what else larrr..

2009-02-10T23:00:00.005+08:00

Being busy, I feel time is too limited.. feels like wanna quit my job and do something BIG!
For me, family, community, the world.. the whole universe!

sigh***

Wondering which to match what... Sux! What else larrr!!!!!?

wink wink wink

2009-02-03T23:29:00.003+08:00

I am sick.... very very sick till doc gave me two days of MC.
But something got to cheer me up today.

Looking forward for my new project.

Yeyy!!! My First Knit Project!

2009-02-01T21:38:00.004+08:00

I finally finished my knit knit... yaaahoooooo..

Booohooooo... I had made myself a blog for my knit-knit hobby..
http://knitknitmitchka.blogspot.com

See.. I knew that my weekends will always full of plans!

Weekends again?

2009-01-30T21:01:00.004+08:00

It feels like just yesterday I had my weekend plans... tomorrow is another weekend?? Huhh?? Time does not fly any faster as it is before, instead it shoot out too fast to even realized it...

Last week..
Arwah Wan Bedah passed away - Al-Fatihah. On Saturday me, hubby, Azura, Tariq and o went back to Seremban. Later we wwas heading to Kg Gunung Pasir, Negri Sembilan...to pay our respect to the whole family. Wan Bedah is mom's aunty which is younger sister to my beloved atuk.. Atuk Daddy..

The next nite, we (me, hubby, Tariq and Taupeq; Azura wasn't interested got her Korean series to catch up on), we had our 'special' journey to Melaka.. Uncle Noi's family resort. WHy did I emphasis on the special journey? Due to some unexpected conditions, which was not intentionly did by me...(Only known by my hubby and bro Tariq.... Taupeq wass alll the way sleeping..ehhehhehe). .... alll the wayyyyy...*how long how long*

We had our beach-fishing with the professional, Abg Fariz.. hmmmm we all called him SIFU... Due to the fact among 5 of us who brought our rods had none to bring home. He got like 4 fishes. Theres two 'daun baru' fish, one sting ray, and the other one is unknown which had a thorn on its head pointing up. Wierd huh this fish...
Abg Faris brought us to his spot at Kg. Kuala Linggi, Pengkalan Balak, MElaka...
At nite, we had successfully made a barbeque without any of our PARENTS! Bravo! Everybody was in 'gotong-royong' mood..

Oh ya! My cousin Hazlin just informed my that she is pregnant! I am very happy for both of them!

So.. whats the plan for this weekend? I dunno la!

Vegetation: Harvesting!

2009-01-18T09:46:00.004+08:00

New family members! Red Basil with Sweet Basil:

Sweet Basil:

Avocado:

Yesterday morning, I made myself to reimburse my garden..
(opps! My mom's actually.. oh well.. she kindda unofficially appointed me.. oh! liar! I appointed myself to take care of the balcony's garden! ahahah! SO? Leave me alone! - talking to my conscious again!)

My garden! Wo de garden! -annoying
Basils are doing really2 great. So, hubby and me decided to harvest the basils into the fridge and some to the pots. We are growing more and more basils people! Hubby was saying,"See baby, we don't actually need huge acres of land. We had it all here!"
My heart still wanting a farm of herbs with a ranch of pony near our small hut with a jacuzzi by the sea.. ahahhaha No such nonsense!

Same goes for the marjorams.
I cleared out all the parasits and still leaving out the huge avocado plant there. When the hell am I gonna let go of this plant! Kesian.. no space anymore.

Experimento by Hubbiyeyyooo: (On my Sweet Basil plak tuh!)

Chili plant has been trimmed by ME: (ahahah hubby got upset)

Weekends in Seremban

2009-01-11T19:46:00.012+08:00

Mom was sick the whole last week... Dad been taking care of her. Doctor gave her antibiotic and let her bedded at home with two nurses (Abah and Taufiq, my lil'bro) Kesian mereka!
Anyway, we all went back home this weekend with a mission to cook for healthy food.. Abah been tapau food from Nelayan. So, before arriving home(Seremban), my hubby and I went to find the "sensei" shop. I was looking for the gouqi, it is a chinese herbs which is also known as wolfberry. I gave out the small paper sheet given by my mate, Alice to the guy at the shop. Gouqi written in Chinese actually. He smiled knowing its my first visit to a sensei shop. The man was very nice to introduce me to the tong sam or also known as the poor man's ginseng. Roots of energy! -stamina laa kirenye.. not for ubat kuat whatsoever tu yer. Then I got home and make herbal drinks to all the elders at home which includes Aunty NA, Aunty T, Aunty Chah whom came for visit..
Drink of gouqi and tong sam chinese herbs!

So, later the other day herbal drink became breakfast,,, ahahahha..was it too much?
We did a food galore till Sunday. We did beef stew, lasagna(Hubby's speciality) and ginger fish stew for mom... Apparently mom got her appetizer just rite on time. She ate everything! Noon, she was able to walk out of the room and enjoy the occasions session of Melody gossips from TV3. Oh well.. foods were still served to her lap.
Cheers to my lil' bro Taufeq for helping me out! Hope you would be a good chef like us! ahaahah perasan!
By the way; BOOOOOOOOOOOOO MANU!!! (No offense ya all, its personally to TAUPEQ)

p/s. Mama, soooo sorry that u were annoyed by us! Thank u for taking care of while I was in my pantang thingy... eheheheheh

GO-GAGA around the house wid hubby...how long how longgg...muahahah...

Been watching: PARKING MANIAC

2009-01-11T19:32:00.004+08:00

Something that we would love to add in The Star and grab the RM50..ahahaha
Picture taken on the way out from Pantai Hillpark...

"First Trimester"

2008-12-13T16:37:00.014+08:00

[Checkout what I wrote during 13/12/2008... I kept this in my draft the other day... thinking that I could journal the entire miracle of my pregnancy moments.. and wanted to publish this out until my 3rd month of pregnancy, but anyway,its ok.. I am glad that I kept some to reflect on later]:

Today would be my 9 weeks 3rd days of my pregnancy. My second pregnancy. Its incredible thing to experience. Feeling nausea.. wanna vomit after every meal, burp, fart... just name it.. I am feeling it. Sucks huh.. No! Its incredible!

The pressure??? Sucks..... My hormone is wildly inconsistently unstable! I feeling sorry for my hubby.. I am feeling sorry for everybody entirely whom has got my pieces of tantrum... But most of all... I am sorry for my hubby!!! He's been there for all my sickness and laughter... I love him!

Our weekly visit is to UMRA... my gynecologist. Doctor Ummul (wife) and Doctor Rafi (hubby) owns the UMRA.. a small shoplot storey which I am comfortable and feeling ok for my delivery.. InsyaAllah. Every visit would always excites us both. Every visit will be end with a jab for the womb. To make it strong I was told. During the 7th week we were watching our first experience of fetus heart beating. Indeed.. my baby fetus had formed the heart beat at this age. Yup! Miraculously incredible!
Alhamdulillah..

I was still clueless of my condition though. I do not really sure whether I am eating healthy or not (Yes I did... with help from most of my officematess whom happy with my condition today). But tell you the truth I do eat a lot. Not a lot as in big portion though.. I constantly eating. My dear handbag had one pack of 'assam' and a packet of biscuits which I will refill Jacob's wheatmeal crackers every morning before going to work.

.........................end................

Currently I am home in Seremban.. enjoying my 2 weeks of MC!!! Well, I had another week to go... this is already tiring... I had to perform the traditional "pantang" thingy for the whole 1 week after my DNC last Wednesday... Yup... I had a miscarriage, 2nd! I already accept it this few days.... My hubby and I had gone the stress moment last 2 weeks before my DNC was performed.. We had been in denial during the docs explanation that "she can't complement the heartbeat"... hmmmm I was thinking that its too early to detect it.. possibly the position of the fetus.. Then hubby was thinking that this doc (It was not Dr. Ummul nor Dr. Rafi did the examination) wasn't good enough performing the scanning...or even maybe its the screen monitor wasnt clear enuf for us..

The next day we went to meet our own doc again.. this time doctor Rafi also lost his cheerful face... Dissatisfy with the scanning he sent me to his wife room.. Scan was made from my private part... Even Dr. Ummul made a face... I smiled. My hubby kept quiet. Now she decided to continue with my asprin medicine... Asking us to come again for my DNC procedure in 4 days... hmmmm that really feels like huge block of brick came knocked on my head... denial? yaaa still... thinking not again....!

For four days I had to carry my tummy with my missing hopes.. But still in denial, I was praying that the heartbeat could appear for our next session meeting... Especially when I had to look into my hubby eyes.. he was sad.. He tried to be strong.. to comfort me, but I could feel his disappointment... , emotionally sad. I saw he was google the web convincing us both why the heartbeat stop. Eventually its the natural cause. We accept it. We redha.

One Wednesday... 24th Dec 2008.. DNC! Hubby brought me back to my parent home, Seremban later. I was bathed by hubby, sweet rite? Yaaa… Hubby took care of me.. Mom told him what to do step by step. He was very quiet..Still being strong for me. I was soooooo weak! I wasn’t tired.. but I couldn’t walk energetically.. I can’t even stand properly for 2 days… I wonder??.. Hubby kept pampering me…

My 3rd day was the day I feel cramp.. I bleed… hmm.. then I feel much tired…. Hubby…still pampering!

I am blessed. Thank you baby!
Alhamdullillahh.

11-11-07 Memoir My Engagement

2008-12-12T14:59:00.012+08:00

I kindda envy people having their engagement photo and all.. hmmmm MINE?
ehehehhehe I dont have!

Why? My engagement was pretty simple. As I wanted, no big kenduri. Yey! For the first time my parent agreed. So, was my inlaws. I dont feel it was necessary for any troublesome for such occasions. I love it if its more intimate between two families. Eventually both sides has not been introduced. Therefore during this metronome I feel that it is important for both parents to know each other abit. Hmmmm no surprise later I know.. Well, different people, different opinion.

During this beautiful day, I had on my past 2 years of baju raya on, very lite green color. Its the only baju raya that I really2 love. And furthermore, none of the cosmetics products was patched on. Hehehehe All Natural. I looked pale though.

My boyfriend (which is my hubby this day) came with both his parents and his sister. for my risik and engagement of one day.. Yes, I know the traditional ways! Which is supposedly the risik should be attend by the representative from groom-to-be. During this risik or booking session they will put in the amount of dowry (duit hantaran) to be paid to the brides. Usually the bride side will insist on the dowry. Then, later the representative will bring the news to the groom parents and preparations for engagement will commends according as decided by both party. Bla bla bla .. bla bla bla.. bla bla bla...Till the dayy of the engagement... Fuhhh! Thats the traditional way ok! Of course I know how it would be for anyone else BUT me.

They brought a jewelery box included my two precious rings. One for "risik" or booking purpose and the other one is the engagement ring. Not necessary but traditions. They were both chosen by me. With great help from my sister inlaw obviously! All white gold! As I wished! My mom was reluctant at first, bcos of she prefer yellow gold more. But, I dont care! ahahah My decision still! I had such a wonderful feeling that my parents gave their consent to all my decisions.

On that day, my sister or my brother was not home. They were both replaced by my aunt and uncle. My parents also feels the chill. The meeting went well. My mom inlaw put in the rings into my fingers later after they announced that the wedding will be taken in one month! ONE bluddy month!!!

Yes, both my parent had difficulty in explaining it to all their siblings after.. I kindda know there were some speculations went around among the family members. But at that momment, I feel they should also respect my decisions. And I dont even bother whatever stories that came up that time, which apparently I only heard it during after my weddings.

How did my wedding went? hmmm.. it had nothing to do with me entirely.. ehhehe! Lucky me huh? I'll blog it to remember till the rest of my life. Tungguuuu...

Been watching: NATIONAL MOSQUE

2008-12-12T12:45:00.011+08:00

Above image is from:
http://asianimages.wordpress.com/2006/08/10/kuala-lumpur-masjid-negara/

While I was on my way to Masjid Jamek (sending my hubby to work), passing thru the roundabout near National Mosque (opposite of KTM)... I saw a production team (cameraman, crew, sexy girls was lectured by one Ustaz. Ustaz was wearing his "kopiah" and "kain sarong" beside the road near the mosque. The leader of the production team was very intense listening.. I excitedly told my hubby.

Me: Baby, I nampakkk org kena marah with one ustaz..

Ari: Huh?

Me: (Making my assumptions after one glance of peeping the gathered homo sapiens by the road..az usual lor) I saw got people gather near the mosque with the cameraman and some other people.. Nak buat Tamil movie ni.. Sume Indian jer..I rase they wanted to take the scenery of the beautiful mosque.. Tapi ade satu ustaz kat situ tak bagi jer. Summore I nampak macam the girls yg sexy2 tuh mcm dok ready nak menari jerrr.. Serious I saw baby!

Ari: Mana bleh they all buat mcm tuh! Of course la ustaz tuh marahh.. Waa dasyat baby bleh nampak sume tuh!

Me: hahahah I busy body. Nampak sume motor dok gather situ jer.. I toleh terus.. kalu bleh kua kepala from this window.. I would!

Ari: The mosque represent Islam itself .. that will ... etc etc etc (He's kindda putting all the BIG WORDS which I would usually stop him and ask, but this time I was abit annoyed,... aahahahah... Sorry baby! But full of informative stuff that I wouldnt know lorrr)

...So later I dropped my hubby and came back to the same route... hehehe to my surrprise they already start their shotting.. The 4 skinny girls with sexy entire already staring dancing.. modern dance..terkinjal-kinjal. I kindda assuming that its for the Tamil or Hindi movie.... taking by the scenery of the KTM insteadd which is just opposite of the road where they were just now..

Conclusion: RESPECT

November 18, 2008

2008-11-26T21:40:00.006+08:00

Avillion Resort, Port Dickson.

Singapore n Uncle Noi's Family came to send the newly wed and 1 year old wed..

On this date (November 18), I was celebrating my birthday with my hubby in Avillion, Port Dickson... Apparently my uncle from Singapore owns 3 of the resorts in Avillion.. hmmmmm....

Here's what happen.. On 15th April, my beloved cousin, Elin got married in Melaka... My family which includes Abah, Mama, Tariq, Zura n Taufeq been going to Melaka almost every weekends... we enjoyed helping out Uncle Noi (Elin's Ayah) and Aunty Norlia (Elin's Ibu). Alot of emotional support and guidance from Abah to uncle... same as from my mom to ibu..hmm I also did my part for my cuz lorrr.. I have been given alot of advise from Elin's ibu during my early marriage... well, not long time ago.. ahahha bru jer kawin ponnn last year December... but being the closest cousin to Elin.... we both shared alots of emotion and been support each other morally..
Love u Elin!

Elin's relatives partly are from Singapore... So, my hubby and I was told that Uncle Zaidi n Aunty Norbini one of Singapore side of the family have been planning a surprise thinggy for the newly weds after wedding ceremony. They were giving them the honeymoon present for Elin, in Avillion, PD..
Few days before the wedding, Elin'd ibu called me out..asking whether me n hubby can take leave from 17th to 19th Nov... Surprisingly, Uncle Zaidi and wife wanted to give me birthday present and hubby an early anniversary present too, which will be coming on this 22nd Dec! Wow! Our 1st anniversary!

There we are..... in Avillion... having our pampering package of holiday.. Uncle also arrange a spa treat for us....
Avillion???? OMG ! Marvelous!!!!!!! Heaven for couple!!! The room is beautiful.

An open air and private bathroom, means having to watch the stars while taking the shower plus the open sea underneath.. Private balcony facing the sea n sunsets.. with privillage of fishing anytime u want....... ahhah hubby enjoyed that so much.. I enjoyed the ambiance of the romantic mood with my hubby... The spa treat... was the greatest ever!

Walkie walkie in the park wid hubby..

Anyways.. my 28th birthday.. celebrated with my beloved cousin Elin and Shaif...
Thankk you.

Back to KL... hubby bought me a birthday present too... so sweet...a LAPTOP! yey!
Tonite, I'm writing down this blog launching my very own laptop...

heheeheh my laptop is so special that the password is my own face!!! ahahahhahah jakun jugak I ni.....

LOVE.

Buzz Buzz Buzz

2008-11-11T17:53:00.004+08:00

What had happen to my...

Room?
No progress yet on the cabinets and the LCD should be relocate
Toilet cabinets? DIY anyone? hmmmmm no layout plans still! arrghhh..

Gardens?
Basils growing very very sloww - cinnimon basil, lemon basil, sweet basil... still alive!
Chinese celery (daun sup)- not enough space in the same pot with Ulam raja...
Chilli- hmmmmm cominggg soon... !!!
Rosemary- RIP..
Pak choy... eaten! cooked into our maggi mee..ahahaha
Marjoram- very small still... wonder why lor?

New thinggy?
KNitting a hanky! ahahahah my 1st FINISHED knitty...

p/s. pictures will be upload soon...tungguuuuuu

Sunwayyy Pyramid_SHOGUN

2008-10-17T11:14:00.003+08:00

Lastnite.. my tempatation towards sushi has been acomplished by having SHOGUN for dinner! Yeyyyy!! Feel soooo goood being pampered like that...ehhehe nak slalu bleh?

For the first time we went to SHOGUN in Sunway Pyramid.. Its a nice place.. hmm more decorative than the one in One Utama... The Japanese buffet was ok-ok... not great .. but it meets my desire for sushi on that day though... I tried to eat alot but I couldn't maybe buffet is better to have during lunch kut...

Anways, after stuffed up with dinner.. we went for a stroll into Sunway Pyramid.. eheheh Sunway Pyramid bring us both memorries... during school time (YEs! I was coupled to my hubby while I was in Form 4 and Form 5) he used to pull me n friends from school.. We ponteng and went to Pyramid Ice Skating.. ahahhaah... those were the days.....

We saw this wig at one of the outlets... I always wanted this type of hair...

My hubbyy... Yes! I admit that I was attracted to him because of the hair!

There goes Ramadhan... Still in Syawal though!

2008-10-14T13:00:00.003+08:00

Its been awhile... I kindda busy that I forgoten to update my blog.. During the last week of Ramadhan hubby and I been busying ransacking our Mom's kitchen..AGAIN!
So, nothing much to update... its been a hectic Raya with such fun experience.

MIXED FRUITS MERINGUE

KEK BATEK

NASI TOMATO

Had such a beautiful Ramadhan with my family.......!

Glorious Mushroom II

2008-09-18T13:43:00.005+08:00

Groooss huhh!
Hubby kindda open another bongkah cap. New mushrooms are coming out...
He currently have only 3 bongkah. This bongkah contains the stuff which will make the mushroom grow... Yes! I am not an expert that is why I couldnt explain further!

Narator: 15 minutes later....
I asked my hubby just what does this bongkah contain of: Serbuk kayu (wood), farming lime, water and mushroom seeds. It is all mixed and packed into a plastic bags with a cap which I've been saying bout the bongkah thingy.

I will just wait for the mushrooms to be picked and cook! By the way, hubby had cook them while I was sick. Soo sweeeett.. and darm delicious the mushrooms!!! Its different when you cook something that you watch to grow! Check it out in my other blog E3-03-03 Kitchen [http://e333kitchen.blogspot.com/]

Glorious Mushroom

2008-09-08T15:52:00.004+08:00

Yippie!!!! Hubby's first harvest of mushroom... Who says living in apartment cannot have vegetations... haaaaaaaaaaa! Believe it!

Now that we are having, basils, marjoram, chillies, avocado, pak choy, dill, chives and ulam raja... my garden is welcoming mushroom into our home...

Yes baby! Congratulations on your 4 months project... Watching the bongkah every single days craze me. I didn't think it would succeed.. Yup! I doubt it at first.... hehehe sorrryyyy. Seeing is believing...... Yipppieeeeeeeeeee!

Diciptakan Wanita

2008-09-05T17:10:00.007+08:00

"Ketika Aku menciptakan seorang wanita, ia diharuskan untuk menjadi
seorang yang istimewa.
Aku membuat bahunya cukup kuat untuk menopang dunia; namun, harus
cukup lembut untuk memberikan kenyamanan "

"Aku memberikannya kekuatan dari dalam untuk mampu melahirkan anak
dan menerima penolakan yang seringkali datang dari anak-anaknya "

"Aku memberinya kekerasan untuk membuatnya tetap tegar ketika
orang-orang lain menyerah, dan mengasuh keluarganya dengan penderitaan
dan kelelahan tanpa mengeluh "

"Aku memberinya kepekaan untuk mencintai anak-anaknya dalam setiap
keadaan, bahkan ketika anaknya bersikap sangat menyakiti hatinya "

"Aku memberinya kekuatan untuk mendukung suaminya dalam kegagalannya
dan melengkapi dengan tulang rusuk suaminya untuk melindungi hatinya "

Aku memberinya kebijaksanaan untuk mengetahui bahwa seorang suami yang
baik takkan pernah menyakiti isterinya, tetapi kadang menguji kekuatannya dan ketetapan hatinya untuk berada disisi suaminya tanpa ragu"

"Dan akhirnya, Aku memberinya air mata untuk dititiskan.

Ini adalah khusus miliknya untuk digunakan bilapun ia perlukan."

minto said: fariz bagi i lol
minto said: moral of story....all men must fight back for their Tulang Rusuk

Yum Yum Ramadhan

2008-09-05T14:03:00.002+08:00

Fasting month!
We broke our fast with chicken mushroom pie bought from Bangsar Village, was not in time to cook for breaking our fast. Due to the fact that we were both keen to cook for dinner yesterday.. However there were some chores needed to perform immediately.

So, in between chores.. We both cooked each a dish! Yes everybody! I am also blessed to have a hubby who loves to cook more than I do.... As usual hubby would do the main dish.. He wanted to do the roast chicken. And he did.. During this time I was in the room cleaning! How I was surprised to see it during dinner! Darm it! I forgot to peep his secret recipe! But check this out!

Wanna see my dish? hmmm dull though.. but darm tasty! Due to the fact that I plucked some sweet basil from my tiny garden! [Yey! My garden will be back soon!]

It is vege soup! hmmm I did it as hubby wanted it.. light but tasty! Picture taken half done eating...hehehehe

Later after that.. I wanted to make "KEK BATEK" ... I was excited which I made him bought all the ingredient while I was at work. (Hubby was sick today. He went MC) But, then again my hubby did his research first! He is always one step ahead of me! Darm!!!!! He modified the recipe from the net to his own.. as usual.
We cooked till 1am in the morning man!! Today during sahur I kindda tired to take the picture. I tasted it though. OMG!!! Fucking good!!!

Ramadhan

2008-09-05T13:16:00.008+08:00

Ramadhan.. My first Ramadhan as wife... I am blessed

I am blessed that both my family and inlaws are in great health.

I am blessed that all my siblings (plus me!) are improving to tackle all
the obstacles coming into our lives.

I am blessed that this Ramadhan we both had made some sacrifies..

I am blessed that we are in a transformation process which we are aware while ignorance has lost its way.. somewhere...

I am blessed that we are adjusting for better living... gradually baby! Gradually!

I am blessed that I could be awake every morning and move on..

I am blessed.

Alhamdulillahh..

My TEMP Home [Part 2]

2008-08-07T15:19:00.005+08:00

The Fairy's Birthday Cupcakes

On the 5th August, Tuesday was Kathrina's birthday.. The Princess of my temp home... She's our niece.. Her mom threw her a party with a clown without makeup! Kathrina hates clown. So, the "supposed to be clown guy" just wore his big bow tie. I thought that he was kindda grumppy to the kids. The make up do make a different for the clowns! It hides their actual emotions. He was good though tying and creating pink panther out of the baloons. But when the other kids asking for summore of his creations, he said.. "tak boleh!" OMG! I didn't tell our cousin.. I dont want her to get upset after all of her effort!

But seriously, for her 2 years old daughter birthday party! I sallute her again!!! I envy her most! She had also made a doll house for her darling daughter. She havent finish it. But, I envy her again. Well, I guess she loves doing it for her kids. I would the same if I could find time and money! Money! Money! Money!

Here is Princess Kathrina Sharol Shaquile

Princess pinky room!
made by her dear mummy!!!

Forgiveness Seeds [Part 4]

2008-08-07T13:57:00.004+08:00

It is hard for to begin in this chapter.. Why? The guilt's of receding my plants by distance. Yes, I did it! I kindda accidently abandon my plants. I am sad and angry of myself! I was away from my garden because of the renovations of the house. Yup, I didn't bring along my plants besause I had no choice. However, I manage to visit them the other day....

Here they are......

Basil? Not good.. I saw all the leaves were shrinking.. Then hubby watered them.. hehehe I was suppose to watered them.. but I was busy taking pictures.. Whatever!

Avocado? Doing fine indeed.. they grew quite high.

Dill? hmmmm not good.. its the one in the round pot. Very dry.

Marjoram? No sign of them anymore!!!!!?!?!?

Chilles.. I have no comment!

Tomatoes .. YEY! They finally grew!

AS for above... hmmm they are the forgiveness beans I planted before..Remember? Aren't they tall!!!? Look properly! The leaves was infected.. joking! The paint driped on my plant... Kesian.

I wish them well and in good health... sigh.

"Flabbergastered"

2008-08-01T11:55:00.003+08:00

Flabbergasted means surprise in dumb ... well its real definations from my favourite site of www.dictionary.com as if struck dumb with astonishment and surprise... waaa i never used this before! and I like it!
Saw this in chedet blog today... He was commenting on Pulau Batu Putih.. Yup! The one that Malaysian lost to Singapore. What a loser! I was flabbergastered too! [hehehe baby, hebat tak i guna this word?]

I am citizen of Malaysia.. As Malaysian.. as of this year, I had been drifted by all the bazzzare media crisis.. I am one of those who are flooting to get to shore. Shore is the truth! Where can we get the accurate facts? Whats with all the propaganda created here? By this, here comes our boat.. My first boat took me to www.malaysiakini.com, next stop will be anwaribrahimblog.com, at the same time I will passed test.chedet.com [by former Malaysian PM] just to be sure whether any fresh berries or chillies to be picked on the way... later the waves pushes me to www.thestar.com., www.mymetro.com, www.bernama.com... etc etc etc until I kindda forgeting where I was heading to... Yes! I am one of the confuse Malaysians!!!!

Whats with the government today, huh? ... Do not answer this! Because there are no answer. And I shouldn't be asking too! But thinking of the things happening in our country make me wanna puke.. I get nausea with all the news no matter from the papers [which I would only saw the title at the mamak during tapau my breakfast], or the net. Even so, the topic would be commented in every social gathering between families and officemate especially! People boosting up the topic! Everybody got their own standings and others got their own ideology.. Its headace! Aaauuwww! Just let Anwar be! Just surrender whoever killed Altantuya! Just let PAS alone! Just give back the darm money to the people! Just fuck off you bluddy hipokrits!!!!

...inner peaceeee..... innerr peaceee..... [kungfu panda: the part that master sifu getting himself calm]

Government should concentrate on our system! Traffics! No change in the LRT stations! Bluddy staff (the guy behind the counter)at one time didn't let me buy my ticket because I had RM50 for RM 1 ticket to Asia Jaya from Universiti LRT! OMG! What a bastard! I just took out money from ATM babes!! So, whre do u think I can get the change,... such a luck I was out of small change... how and what should I do? Just as I was approaching him.. I saw he was holding alot of RM10 notes.. He gave me a look at my RM50 notes and demand me to find smaller change while quickly hiding the red notes! I am the fucking customer!!! Darm you!
[Sorry for any inconviniece ..ehehhe, I just need to let it out.]

Having the LRT stations in Malaysia after KTM shows how our country has developed. However, where the hell is the parking?? Why can't every stations include this? Universiti station is currently in progress of constructing new walk path for the passerby. Darm it! No more free parking! Furthermore, I do not know how can the town councill letting this contractors creating such a dangerous compound at the station. Another day, I was waiting between the coral of stones... wire poking out from the ground, I saw a blind man.. Well, I always see him there.. And he usually know when to step up or down walking towards the near apartment. Just because of the current construction he was lost.. I followed him and catch his hand to ensure him following same routes as others.. whom don't even bother! OMG Malaysian! Grow up! Opps! probabbly they weren't! Do not let me start with the foreigners... Whre is DBKL? Ohhh! Saman salah parking laju jerr! But when it comes into people or public safety.. you people just dont bother?? Oh Malaysian!

..innner peace... inner peace.....

My TEMP Home

2008-07-31T15:18:00.004+08:00

My husband and I, including mama-inlaw currently are staying in Tika and Joe's house temporaryly. What happen is that we were not chased out of the house by my sista inlaw; but we are all away from the major renovation. Yes! Our home are in massive constructive for more style improvements.. heheh what the heck!

Appreciating and blessed as our family developing gradually.. Alhamdullillah!

My Temp(temporary) home is located in Damaisari in Bangsar.. its behind Trivolli Condo.. Mohzani (chedet's son) is staying in the same area. He's house is like 4 blocks away.
Hmmm who else? Well, not many locals staying there since I stayed.. As I observes upon my daily path go and back from work I reliazed that national car available was only mine! My MR BLACKY.. Iswara! Yey!

Tika and Joe have 3 kids. Amer, Shaquille and Kathtrina.. They are all such a doll!
They age 10, 8 and 2.. my guess! Well, my current routine now is to be back home before 8 pm. Due to the fact that the kids sleep at 8pm sharp! Yes people! Since I finish work at 6... ya da ya da.. I'll reach home at 7.30pm... Able to cuddle the princess (katherina) in half hour time only. That depending whether she had her dinner or not. If not, I would just see her in the morning.. They are all awake at 6.30 am ok! Yes! I sallute Tika and Joe!

Katherina

Shaquille

Note: Tika is my hubby's cousin.

Dedicate to PICs !!!?

2008-07-25T16:31:00.004+08:00

Dear Fa,
I would like to report that due to 'was-was' case of Zulina from Process 5.. She decided to rerun the JTdivider script.. Yes Fa!!! Without your permission!!?
I know! She had been sneaking behind you running this script again even though her process had no error... such a b#^@h!!! I have evidence here in the picture below:

zooooommmmm innnn.....

kesian kan dia FA!

Dear Aqma,
Meeting was a boom when u were not around... As usual, somebody got panic.
That, u will be updated once you are back,k.
[P5 and P2] vs [P1] -> P4[me] was banned from the battle...
... and the winner is.... P1 [Azzudin] Yeyyy!!! By the way, P4[me] was in P1 side!YEY!!! WE ROCKS! Eventhough I just stood there quietly...I was there.. I attended it without any 'punctured', k!
[Alice spelled punctual to 'punctured' in her email before the meeting was held]

Dear Ayu,
If you decide to be absent on Monday.. I will tell everybody bout your secret..
Which one? No worries.. I 'll create one!

Dear Zulina,
W H A T E V E R !
I tau laaa meeting tadi u were such a babe telling our bosses your considerationsss....

Note: PIC means person in charge .

Thank you & best regard.

All Day At Work [NAVIGATOR]

2008-07-24T15:49:00.008+08:00

Yes! I am being pathetic over this blog.. Yes! I do have work! And yes! I need to wake myself up! Yes.. I shouldn't.. but i just did! OMG!

On my 270 degree angle:
From my view are my fellow mates...this is the specification section which including Process 6.. Eh? Whre's Fa? Merayap la tuh! hmmmmmmm....

280 degree angle:
Jeng Jeng Jeng.. people! Run!!!! Don't let her sees u! Or u'll be ENVIED!
Its our COORDINATOR (Yes Aqma! I hear u!!!!??)
Behind her are Process 1 personels! Azzudinnn...!!! Available girls!!!!

0 degree angle:
She lovess to peak a booo me!! Please meet my fence mate : AYU!!!!! hehehehe
She's our cutest sugar pie! Ayu! Ayu! Ayu! Ayu!
Goooooooooooo AYUUUUUUU!

90 degree angle:
Eh? haaaaaaaa tu dia Fa ... Amboi! Watcha doing???

135 degree angle:
Here are all the experts.. Process 5 yeyyy!!! They are lead by my 180 degree angle mate...

180 degree angle:
Behind me... hmmm ...i dunno her!
She's Zulina... My fantacy mate! Yey!

We are all under the same sun... Jeng jeng jeng... look below.. its our sun!
Shines us with lots of rain!!! Oh mannn....!

All Day At Work

2008-07-24T14:38:00.003+08:00

WoRk wOrK wORk.... eleeeeh.
Below is my current view of my monitor.... booooorrriiiingggg!
Check this out.. the background is MY WORK.. Yes! The wierd lines with arrows with different colors.. They are all codes! Yes our navi codes! Whatever!.. its my daily QC task.. Sux? Naaaah.. its just fuck up!

As for item 1 .... hmm thats is where we people communicate.. it will just pop out telling any kind of messages. FUn? yes! At least we robots do communicate!
In view now is from Zulina... well most of the time me and Zulina would make our own fantasies.. we would create our own dimension of world. I enjoyed it so much since we had same wierd kind of mind! Yes my friend.. if so happen u saw us both laughing out loud in the office.. dont bother.. we are crazy people! But we are nice.

Item 2.. its our commannd prompt thinggy! comes in handy when u wanna call out other ppl who always plug in their ears during work! I hate it! heheh but I do sometimes plugged myself to avoid involvement of task! Jahat k!! hehehe its a trick! Just dont bother when other ppl talk to u.. but when they wave, then u start "U taliking to me kaa???" hehehehehe shhhhhh!

Item 3... work work work work work.. my QC thingy..

On my rightside of view... Rozimy just started work yesterday.. far behind.. Syam superpower chick.... dont play play!

Forgiveness Seeds [Part 3]

2008-07-22T16:19:00.004+08:00

Checkout yesterday's plant!
They heard my call.. OMG! within 1 day it can grow this tall? Ohh how I wish other plants of mine would come out and grow as these beans.. It is such incredible that I feel like a mommy! I am mommy! Mommy of the 3 little greens....

Ohhh.. They are might be walking soon. OMG! What did I just said? Hehehe chill everybody! I am not over craze, if that you would have think.. I am just pleased over it.

How on earth can it grow in a blink second... Others, such my basils, corriender, tomatoes, chinese cellery.. helpless.. where did i do wrong.. hmmmm...

Forgiveness Seeds [Part 2]

2008-07-21T16:00:00.005+08:00

Magic seeds bloom into the world.. Welcome!

Peek a boo!

Ohhh..!

Open wide...

Horray!!!?

Grow summore pls!

In The Midst Of Difficulty Being Easy.

2008-07-20T19:40:00.004+08:00

Ever thought that life can be easy wihout being so difficult? Yes, if it’s difficult to be easy at any difficulties. Waaa what the hack!
Well the story starts when the whole family (Mom inlaw, sis inlaw, me and hubby) need to move out.. Major renovations of the house requires…hhmm .. Budget? That will only comes my father inlaw… So, before the renovations alots of ideas came in… first and foremost, mom inlaw wants us to exchange room with her. Means we’ll be taking the master bedroom, and she’s taking ours. Then, other stuff like change the shower in the toilet. Note: at this point me and hubby thinking was the bathtub that we would have wanted to be in together is an instant dream coming through! Then, the whole makeover of the living rooms and the balcony. My sis inlaw.. she’s is in the picture.. but social actives made her missing in the room… It’s ok, she’s easily pleased. The master planner would be mom inlaw. Of course! Its her house. Noted.
Then, comes the next step. Where to live in within 2 months the max? Mom inlaw got it all plan out. She’ll be staying in a cousins house, sis inlaw will be in the other cousin’s home nearer to the house, as for me and hubby we’ll be staying in Accapella. Yeah, with my brother in the studio apartments. Its kindda a cool idea since I feels it’s the best way to be with my brother to support him more.. Don’t take it wrong.. brother is looking for job.. needs moral support!!
As times passing by, my sister suddenly moved in Accapella with my brother. She got work offer in Shah Alam, so it’s the best thing if she stays there. I didn’t get the picture of the impact of me and hubby gonna stay in there together wid my sis and brother. Until its strucked me that my sister said that she mind very much of us staying there. I was trying to make things not difficult by persuade her to just accept it because we don’t have any other place to go unless renting. Which is the last resort lor.
I was in a very mind twisting cracking plus emotionally minded to figure out whats the best thing by going to work on Saturday and stayed until 7pm. During this time, mother inlaw called. Asking me to get service apartment for rent. I was much much blur, thinking maybe its her change of plan, which I feels keep happening in this life. So, I googled some numbers and got fews agents to be contacted. Thought that I would compile it and later at home I can show to my mom inlaw all the options we can get. Now its sparks me abit that we might be staying together. Probably she was also having the same situation on the other sides same as mine. Making things easier. Ok. After awhile, in less than 1 hour, cousin (the ones which mom inlaw planned to stay with) called me on my hand phone. I was surprised. She was asking me why I and hubby not staying with her together with mom inlaw. Its much nearer and convenient, she said. I agreed but I was out of reasons to answer. Then she told me that mom inlaw said I was shy to stay in. Hmmm thinking that never occur pon any of that situation, maybe mom inlaw don’t want to trouble them neither. So, I just said yes. I was shy. I do now. Then she said that we are family, why must I being apart. I was touched. I said to her its ok with me, but I’ll asked my husband (which doesn’t make sense at all, due to the fact my hubby is the one being her cousin, of course he would be trilled and happy to stay in). SO, yes I said yes. Being easy as well.
So, after work I went back home. Opps! I went to meet up with my parents. They are here staying in Accapella.. Making their pit stop. They were having lunch on Sunday afternoon. However, nobody’s home (Accapella), I need to passed my key to them. I cant’ stay long due to the fact that I was very very tired and still blurr and constipating in the brain. I told them that I might be staying with my hubby cousin as well. They were trilled. I know they were clueless due to the fact that they never been to my house. Yes! Where I am staying now. I was hoping that they would understand by making some sense that the house is not ready yet. After that I went straight home… Pantai Hillpark.
Here’s the best part, jeng jeng jeng (flat note everybody!).. Hubby’s home from outstation! YEY! Mom inlaw also home! Yey! Means more things to figure after today… So, the best part is that the renovation will be held within 1 day. WOWW! I felt like wanna faint. Tired! That is why. The kitchen stuffs are all packed in box by mom inlaw. Hubby was tired as hell.. yaa arriving from Ipoh all. I went to check out some stuff to packed just to pleased my mom inlaw. I felt pity for her for not helping. I told myself that tomorrow (Sunday) will need my energy. Go and sleep don’t think. Cuddled in by my hubby and all problems dissapear.. Alhamdulillah.
Morning arrived. I awake with such an energy and straight away packing all our stuff. Mom inlaw was panicking. Not enough box. Keep pastering hubby to get summore. So did I. Sorry B! Then, packing continues. Later I went to get box and buy lunch with hubby. I reported summore about what is happening. The tense and all. Then to my surprise hubby inform me that mom inlaw told us both not to eat at cousin’s place while we were staying there nanti. Wow! I am now officially feels its such a difficult to be easy again! Hmmm… That conversations left me thinking more. Hmmm .I would not want to continue thinking easy neither diffcult anymore.. Just let it be… More would be coming I guess.. such as the bathtub.. Ya! Cut short! There might be no bathtub.. I can continue dreaming.. I hope my hubby reading this won’t take it wrongly.. Not a preasure k over the tub issue. As you said. Let it be. I just want to express the mind said. But the bed issue is huge.. hehehehe I want new bed. Its ok. Tell your mom its our own saving. We can have it right? Or maybe just let it be. Since mom inlaw suggest to change the matress only. Just do it. Being easy, because we can just buy a new bed frame later rite?? Hehehe.
The end.

Forgiveness Seeds [Part 1]

2008-07-20T19:37:00.000+08:00

13-07-08, 16:19 Sunday

Planting Seeds.

1. I’m Sorry Bean (Red) - plant in the new pot with worms.
2. I Love U Bean (White) - plant in the new pot with worms.
3. …Can’t remember which one (White) - plant in the new pot with worms.
4. Good Luck Bean (Red) - plant into theold worm pots.
5. Chinese corriender seeds - plant together with Dill plants.

All beans and seeds already watered. Plants should be out after 10 days. Lets hope for them to grow well on these day. Can’t wait to see them all.

Forgiveness Seeds

2008-07-17T15:59:00.003+08:00

Seeds of forgivesness.. awwhh.. Hubby bought me these seeds of loves.. So sweet.. I had the same question too.. where on earth did he get it from? Kotaraya!! Wooww!

I had planted 5 of these 10 seeds scattered around my garden... Can't wait for it to grow!! Grow! Grow! Grow!
p/s. Thank you baby.. I love them soo much!

Housewife’s current event

2008-07-10T00:07:00.014+08:00

Chinese Celery

Leftover Basils

Cili Padi

Avocado

Tomatoes

Household routines are as the usual stuff.. Washing clothes, hanging clothes, arrange clothes in the wardrobe. (Hence; we got maid on the ironing.. peewhhh for that! Plus, luckily I’m used of doing all sorts of chores ..thanking my mom for being busy with BAKAT thingy; that I will slot in the agenda of my past later). I don’t mind the cleaning, refill the ‘air masak’, sweeping.. which only required in my room if its really in critical condition or the mood swings out of predictions..
Cook?? Hmmm used to cook a lot when I got back from work… hmmm but somehow since I’m on diet never heard any demand or request yet from my hubby which would crack my head to figure out what shall be served.. So, what shall I do is by asking what he wants to eat.. MY HUBBY?? Apparently hubby of my is very picky when it comes into food.. I can live with that.. at times I would also cook using all perfect ingredients to make the dish much more delicous..my moms love it when I did that… Sometimes my mother inlaw would also cook for us… once in a fortnite. Lastime she would cook everyday, but as time goes by, we all inlcuding my sister in law had dinner plan elsewhere. So, I know how she feels every time the fridge overflows with food. She would tell everybody was not keen to her cooking.. and it seems like I was the only one who ate it. OMG! My mother in law’s cooks marvelously! She is good.

Marjoram making its way..

Marjoram..

Then.. gardening… ohhh my favourite.. hmmm I am into herbs. (My hubby introduced me to all sorts of herbs and the winner would be BASIL).. I love basil!!!! It’s a joy moment to watch my first basil to bloom! I claimed its mine.. but with moral supports and some contributes from my hubby.. its considered OURS! Oh ya, guess what I grew my herbs in the pots at our balcony of Pantai Hillpark, Phase 1… (Yup! That is where I am staying with my hubby together with my sister inlaw and mother inlaw…) Seeds was gained from our local favourites.. Carrefoure, Giant, TMC … all neatly packed beeing commercialized and sold for 3.40 per pack.. Well, it is only for our own personal use.. Which is in every single dish the basil never being left without. Guess what? Even into our maggi mee.. The basils was in 20 plants of the long plastics rectangle brown color pot grew well for within 1 months plus. After a few months it became very high and grew old. At that time we both was not sure what to do. We just let it be. Later I was transporting it in to different pots when suddenly some kind of virus appear on the leaves of few basil plants. I quarantine them trying to make sense of science. At the same time, my thyme herbs was also growing. Again, I did some adjustment, where I combines the thyme together with basils. That was not a good move. Yes! It was a mistake. (Don’t worry, I am learning!!!) My thyme shrunken till I could not figure out what the leaves are shaping into. Well, at least I smelt the aroma of the thyme during its growing process. It feels great too! Thymes grew in such a bush full. Its weird because in the market it grew straight like chopsticks. Well I was comparing my balcony with Genting Highlands. Noted.

And now, after all the basils gone, my garden is in process of planting the marjoram, coriander (haven’t grew any baby plant yet), tomatoes, chillies, dill, Chinese celery and avocado. Yup! Ladies .. AVOCADO! Can u imagine? My mother in law came back from Riau, brought in lots of avocado fruits. Then those huge seed insides was thrown in to balcony scattered into sands. And two plants of avocado was found today!!